i do have a sponsor, jsut got one last month, but she doesnt seem available most of the time, i have read some of the big book, got throgh the chapter of the agnostic, which to me is saying there should be no such thing as an "agnostic" that you MUST believe in some kind of higher power, which i do, i jsut dont know why if there is WHY i've gone through all of this hell
i do have faith, faith that SOME day i will be restored to sanity, i feel so messed up right now that it is hard to have hope, but i am trying
crys