I'm so sorry for your sad day. I have an AS and I haven't heard from him for two months and we kicked him out. My day won't be ruined but I have to admit that something is missing.
Although I've put my AS in my higher power's hands there are times when I have to cry and get it out of my system. I also attend meetings, which help me a great deal. Then I can move forward and live.
Good for you for doing the right thing. You took action that will get him a little closer to looking at his problem - not your problem. It takes courage and love to do what you did. I hope you can think of things to be grateful for and it puts a smile on your face ;-). Keep taking good care and believe in yourself.