Hi jadebaringer
So many of us fell into that trap of using booze to pas the time, or unwind, or stop being bored...and then so many of us crossed that line into alcoholism.
Obviously like I was, you're clearly unhappy in some areas of your life.
The thing I found is nothing changed until I made it change.
I needed to look at my life holistically and work out what was going on.
I needed to think about some changes to my life - stopping drinking being a primary one, but not just that.
I also needed to let go a bit, and reach out.
That counsellor may be a good start for you...and maybe checking out a recovery group like AA or some other would be a better use of that down time?
I know you'll find a lot of support and ideas here.
Welcome
D