Improving but still wanting
I am improving with less anxiety in the past week. I seem to be accepting the situation (ending the relationship) better and feel strongly it was the right thing to do. However, I still want to know that she will get better in my thoughts. It's like I want confirmation knowing she is heading down the right path. I know that's not possible, but it's a strong, strong want!
My prayers have focused on HP showing her a path, and to enable recovery to be a decision of hers. I pray believing that it is being done, but do realize it is her choice. I also pray for guidance, healing and less anxiety for myself. I have seemed to turn the corner in establishing friendships and somewhat of a social network. This was needed!
In the past month I was wanting her to contact me, whereas now I realize it's for the better she doesn't. Her HP needs me out of the picture to work on her. I pray for continued patience~