LS2

Ahh, why do I keep telling Afiance that he needs to get his butt to treatment?!?!Maybe I feel I want that "break" from him. Well, he does need to go to get his license back...but, he's been without one for 5 years now..he's on his 4th DUI.

I don't understand why I keep arguing with him that he needs to go, I think I just want him to LEAVE me, but I am scared. I think change is scary and I am just heartbroken for my kids.

We had an argument this morning, I said, I am DONE driving you! and I told him I feel like I have another kid!Luckily he works right in town here, so he can walk or get a ride... He goes on saying well there are alot of things I do for you. Then I am like you are manipulating me right there, by trying to make me feel GULITY for having to drvie you places...He says, Oh but I am the one that supports the gas that goes into the car.


Then he says, "I have been sober 3 months..this is what you wanted! and you are still acting mean to me and you never have anything nice to say, your always putting me down to make yourself feel better." I swear we have this argument daily, that he has been a better person and getting things done and helping out etc etc..He says I need to just move on like he is doing and forget the past stuff.

I just don't know what to do...I need advice! He says he will find a place to live if I want him to leave...then he can't make that decision so he asks me to make it for him..Im just like well you gotta do what you need to do. I don't knoww?! I want him to go, but then I am scared.

Then, I have another frustration-not alcohol related- my stepson (well not excatly since were not married) he is only 5, his mom is, I guess not a good mom if you ask me.. well we had an incident 5 months ago where he was trying to kiss my 3 year old's privates. This added to me asking a couple simple quesitons and turns out his 12 year old brother was touching him innapropriate.

I confronted his mom, she denyed it all and she asked his brother denied it and I think they threatened my SS...Because after that had happened and after I had already told his mom.. I called CPS and they found nothing.

This is an every other weekend issue- the constantly watching anyone who goes into the bathroom-he will open the door, he was spying on me changing my clothes, he asked my 3 yr old daughter to kiss him on his lips or kiss his butt...I just don't know what to do? My Afinace won't do anything, he hasn't caught any of it so he probably thinks I am lying. He got mad when I called CPS behind his back.

What do I do? this isn't normal is it? I know kids are curious but, this seems like red flags.

I'm willing to do anything to protect my kids and I want my SS to get help-but I am not his parent.

Ugh...help sorry I am just venting away and the whole SS situation isn't about alcoholism sorry.