you can work thru this. it's a man, not a lung. you'll live!
This is so true!
I used to think I needed to be loved by someone then I realized I needed to learn how to love myself first.
As I look back now, I realized I dated addicts and sociopaths because they reinforced that childish voice deep down inside of me telling me that I was unworthy of love. That I didn't deserve better than how they treated me.
It wasn't about the man. It was about the emptiness inside me. No one could fix that part of me except me. (And no drug could fill that emptiness either.) Until I fixed that part of me, I was doomed to "love" a-hole after a-hole after a-hole.
There's a great post on this board about toxic love vs. healthy love. You should see if you can find it. You may find answers there. Something that will help you take the focus off his brokeness and help you focus on yours.