Something I'm worried about but haven't mentioned
Yes, I used the word "worried" even though I'm not supposed to use it or do it.
This is the dark cloud I seem looming in my future.
See, he's in school (or was) and is supported by financial aid. If he fails at school, he will no longer have any funding, which means he'll probably end up with nowhere to live, very soon (the quarter will be over in early June).
If this happens, I have NO doubt he will show up at my door, crying, telling me he totally screwed up, that he'll never drink again, if I just help him out til he gets on his feet, etc.
I know I'll have to say, "No". So when I say, "no", I'll feel horrible and guilty and awful. If I say "yes", I'll feel horrible, and awful, and really stressed out.
The thing is, I don't want to do either. I don't want to have to deal with that situation. I just want to heal and move on. That's what I want.
In the past, I would have just moved out of the state. I'm a runner.