****{hugs}}}
Take it easy on yourself. You had a moment. Don't let it get you down.
It is hard to co-parent with some people. The kids don't see what we see. Mine see a fun dad that I am taking them away from. My just turned 4yo asks if we can all move in with dad, declares his hatred of me, his new town, his house, wants to stay with dad, kicks and screams when we leave, pathetically asks if dad can come with us. It is awful. The older kids cry when we don't do things all together, want me to hang out with them at their dads. It can be so shattering if I spend to much time dwelling on it.