Originally Posted by
mishaco1 
1. Guilt - I feel guilty anytime I smile, anytime I go to have fun, anytime I spend money. I know this is because I know he has nothing, he is homeless, no job, no money and it is eating me alive. That this is a sickness and I am just abandoning him to the streets.
It is hard to jet off and away from them, leaving them in the dust so to speak.
If this man were a diabetic, yet he loved the dessert table, and refused to cut back on them, and every time he did he became ill, how would you feel about that? You'd be angry! You'd say "I know you have a sugar processing disease, yet you can do things to better manage them."
Right?
His disease, his choice how to manage it.
The blame (#2) ones goes along with this.
Glad you didn't have a "relapse". I have found that it's like a tape that keeps replaying - it keeps us stuck. We feel instant relief when we hear that song, but after it is done, well we're right back where we were. Have to break that "need".
Hope the sun shines soon for you.