I've with GiveLove... my STBXAH was like a drug to me. So wonderful at first, the "high" was seductive. When things started going bad, I convinced myself that they would get better, and that wonderful, loving, caring, gentleman to whom I was married would return, but it just kept getting worse until I was in serious danger of losing my life to this AH-drug. For me, it's taken months to get over the worst part of it. But OHHHH is it worth making it through to the happy, joyful, smiling side and being almost completely rid of the pain.
Congratulations to Posie changing STBXAH to XAH!!! I have a feeling that when I can type XAH on this forum, I'll be over a significant hump.
I hope you've received the comfort, Mishac, that these posts are giving to you! We've all been where you are. You are NOT alone, and you WILL get through this!
Hugs!
Tigger