Originally Posted by
mishaco1 
I had a horrible panic attack about 2 am Thursday morning and there was not one person there for me and I lived through it... he can too.
You are so right. At the end of my marriage I started having panic attacks. Did I get comfort? No. I saw cruel satisfaction on his face. He liked it.
Just like he liked it when you were sobbing on the floor with a towel cleaning up the mess he made and he was strutting around telling you if you called the police he'd make it worth their while.
You think his cruelty is just a foreign byproduct of his drinking. But that's not true. It's a part of him. I know it's confusing because you only see it when he drinks, but he's not two people. He can help it, he just chooses not to when he drinks.