Thank you Hello-Kitty and Ann for the support. I have a schedule for some Al-Anon meetings in my area..so that's a good start. Now all I have to do is find time to make it to one. It seems every time I pick a day and time to start something comes up.
I have come to the realization that he can make his own choices as hard as it that is for me.
I have read several stories of other peoples situations and it makes me start to question how "bad" my sons drug problem is. I can't say everyone on her, but many seem to be dealing with worse drugs and issues than my son (his pot and occasional harder drugs). I almost feel guilty for feeling as hopeless as I do. Am I wrong for feeling this way?