I understand exactly what you're going through. I'm not leaving my AH. I made up my mind a long time ago that I would stick it out for better or worse. He's not an abusive drunk. I hate to see him get so stupid, though, so I normally watch some TV with him and then head to my room early to watch tv, read, crossword puzzles. It's acceptance, like LaTeeDa said, not approval. If I'm lucky I'm sound asleep when he finally stumbles into the bedroom and I don't have to see that unfocused look, like he doesn't even see you. I hate that. Detachment is a wonderful thing.