Dear Hope
So sorry for the reasons that brought you here - but so glad you found us.
There is a lot of wisdom here. I want to have hope with you. This is a time when the focus has to be on you.
You are a veteran at war with this . We at SR with be with you all the way. Come here often. Read and post a lot. Here we have world wide prayers ! There are people here in your exact position. Others will be here soon.
Hugs