Stopped in at a treatment facility today and got a screening. The place is interesting--recovering alcoholics and drug addicts run the show and just from speaking with a counselor, I received the impression that they were incredibly committed to getting folks sober while retaining an atmosphere of acceptance, which is an accomplishment. I felt welcome, and the counselor validated what I already knew--I am a (recovering) alcoholic.
After taking his recommendations into account, I will attend AA meetings for a few months or at least until I feel that this is no longer an issue. I'm also on the lookout for trappings and environmental triggers. Draining day. Regarding my identity, I've gone from problem drinker to alcoholic to recovering alcoholic in less than a week, though I guess I knew the truth long before today. I'm worried how my family will take it. I can't help but feel like I've disappointed them somehow. Hopefully, that mentality will go away with time.
Best of luck and thanks for the support,
Draciack