I found some inner truths for myself on this topic.
While an active drunk, I was 30 pounds heavier, wore glasses, and dressed 20 years older than my years. These things are really no big deal.
Howwever, I was a mess inside. Completely unhappy about my appearance. Why? Afterall, I wasn't ugly by any means - So what was the reason I felt hideous?:
Because as an active drunk, I was not who I was supposed to be from the inside out. While I looked "okay" It wasn't how ME, MYSELF as an individual was supposed to appear. It simply wasn't my skin. It was someone else.
When I got sober and the internal changes began, an automatic response was also a physical transformation. Shed 30 pounds, glasses no longer needed (this isn't the norm I caution). I tried so hard to appear normal that I was afraid to take risks with clothes. I'm an artist, I was meant to dress like one. It's all part of who I really am. Now I wear tall high-heeled boots and most clothes have glittery stuff of somekind on them! I have red, red, long hair.
It's wonderfully bizarre to finally be in my proper skin.