Thanks CoffeeDrinker. What I meant was broke the relationship off due to the myspace chatting with other guys. If I had not, we would still be together. But your right, there was no love being shown from her. I was just beating myself up.
In away I am taking responsibility and that is 100% wrong after rereading it.
Was only with her 20 months and it was a long distance relationship of 5 hours. The four years was a typo? Or I meant since my divorce.