Originally Posted by
Alizerin 
I realized functioning was just an illusion. Took a deep bottom for me too. However, now I see I expended a ridiculous amount of energy just trying to live. and all I ever got was the appearance of "Average".
They say when active we are only 50% of who we really are. I found this to be true in my case.
Interesting post, and I agree with every sentence.
To the original poster, yes, that was pretty much me too.
Regarding empty bottles: after 8 months, I'm still finding lost, mostly vodka bottles (all empties, of course) in really good hiding spots I'd forgotten about! And funny, a couple Sunday mornings ago as I was dressing I found a hidden nip in my closet. I mentioned it to my wife and she asked if it was full. Stupid question, but funny (now). :-)