"so i wonder if this is about being READY or about being NEEDY and craving some things that have been absent from your life???"
Honestly - Probably both. Which makes it all the more trickier. Less needy, more craving I think. I'm not googlied eye'd or waiting for his phone calls. But, it would be nice to hold hands with someone while wandering through a museum this weekend.
The "needy" monster is probably alive and well in here somewhere. So, I'll keep a watch out for it's scent (or try to).