It took me a long time to realize that this program was about growth and changing the inside of me, and that using was just a symptom. When i was 1st introduced to NA/AA i was full of self hatred, fear, shame, guilt, and i was isolated from everyone. I almost hit the 1st man that came up and hugged me and told me he loved me (he is now my sponsor). Ive struggled and made my growth alot harder than it had to be, and ive fell out of the rooms a few times, but ive grown none the less.
Today i couldnt imagine a day going by without hearing my sponsor tell me that he loves me. I can actually sit and be still with myself, and enjoy it
I can deal with the things that life throws at me instead of running from them. Most importantly i can say that i love myself today enough to never want to go back to the life i lived before.
I think this is a great topic. Much too often we dont see the growth that we have managed, even though others do, simply because we dont take the time to think about it