MM and Anvil -- thank you for that perspective. I'll be the first to admit that my judgement with things is very cloudy right now. I never thought of looking @ it that way. I think too it's better for the kids to not have contact, any contact.
I look @ myself and I'm trying to make my way out. This 1/2 in 1/2 out is making me crazy. It would be the same way for the kids I guess. It gives them hope when their may not be hope. Thanks guys, I would have come to the right decision, I'm still reeling I guess.
MIL is assuming (per convo last night) that I'm going to go running up to every visitation (sunday). I won't be doing that. I want off of this crazy train.