Thanks Jadmack, Anvil, everyone.
I do so much better when I focus on me - on my own stuff - on things I can change.
I guess that the whole relationship was so Twilight Zone (my head took months to stop spinning) and his personality change was so dramatic, that I just ... I don't know. Did I imagine the craziness? I can relate to so many posts - one today about someone's A wanting to buy a cello, make a film, move ... I was literally nodding. I got a crick in my neck sometimes from watching him vitrually bounce off the ceiling. But I didn't ever see the sloppy drunkeness. Didn't ever see him drink. So I hear about him doing great and I sometimes wonder whether I'm in alanon and sitting on a recovery site making up a "case" to justify my grief over being rejected.
I do feel grateful to her for taking out my garbage - only what if I brought out the garbage?
I'm hoping that this is just a blip and that I'll bounce back quickly.
SL.