When fighting for my life, I will try anything healthy to get myself back. I love this room..because this weekend it showed me it was ok to accept my feelings and be sad/depressed and call out of work again and stare at the wall all day for now. I felt my feelings..I tried to get out of the house and shopping didnt work but my friends called and I went to dinner and I did it.
It's a matter of self acceptance and now I know my pain will take time to resolve and that made me more peaceful in a way. I kept thinking I was messing up but it feels good to take that dysfunctional thinking off my back and say I am learning and trying to heal and will try again.