I am proud of you that you went to the meeting, and you should be proud of yourself! Keep going and others have suggested, please see a doctor who specializes in treating addictions. You are in Houston with many, many major medical centers there, there WILL be one or two or three! :tounge-in :tounge-in You can do it with the help of so many and it will be better, if you do the work. The work may sometimes seem hard and pointless, but remember, it is worth it. I have been clean and sober for 5 1/2 years. It is worth all the pain and agony I went through. These have been the best 5 1/2 years of my life.
Keep us posted and I am praying for you. :tounge-in