Originally Posted by
Jadmack25 
Lulu....Like you I have lots written in diaries and have wondered whether to toss them out or not. Decided to put them away as insurance policy, as tho RABF is doing well, and has even kept from smoking for 6 weeks, he is an A.
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Funny how someone who is so damaged by addiction can convince me that I am the cause of HIS problems, tell me that I am useless, ugly, dumb and hateful, and I believe it for so long.
Wonderful when I finally learn it is a load of ABS and I am free to be the me I was meant to be.
Well done to us all, for where we have come to since leaving where we were.
God bless
I am trying really hard but I feel like i go in a circle. i am great for a bit and then I fall and when i fall i call out of work and stay in bed for days. I get very depressed and I am gettin worried about myself. There is no logical reason on earth why i would miss him. I should be out and about and having fun. Not home in bed, Its sad..I kicked him out and yet nothing has changed for me. I almost want to throw my hands up in the air and give up.