afterwards I feel guilty.
I used to feel guilty after drinking too, then my alcoholism got so bad so quickly that I was drinking all day every day and felt guilty all the time. I think maybe guilt is that "still small voice" inside you that's screaming to be heard.
From what I've seen, social drinkers, TRUE social drinkers who don't have a problem, don't feel guilty about it. Guilt is your conscience yelling at you to listen up! If it's making you feel bad, or taking you away from your family, it ain't worth it! Give it up; you'll have more money, more time, and way less guilt... not to mention the trouble you'll avoid.
I'm from Ohio too, and the nice weather IS cause to celebrate - just not by making yourself feel bad in any way. Stay sober and there's more to enjoy.
