Thanks everyone for your encouragment. I don't feel alone anymore. I have had too many nights where I don't remember everything that happened. I can't take anymore! I just turned 30 the end of last year. I kept thinking it was too late for me to change and have all the things I wanted like my dear friends have. I think that was a big part of the problem. Meaning, I need to change my path to get what I want instead of worrying about what everyone else has. I have hope and I know that nothing will change in my life unless I change. I will make it to a meeting eventually but I am hoping this site and all of the wonderful people here will get me by until I get to that point. I stumbled upon this site for a reason
