i went to the aa meeting last night and met a bunch of great people. i told them my piece and they all listened. im not used to that. i got a schedule of meetings and im going to keep going. thank you all for your support. i went to a friends house after the meeting just to talk. she offered me a beer. i guess i need to figure out who my real friends are. by the way, i didnt accept it. i walked out and drove home.