"Why? Because I am high-functioning and that is a big, big part of my problem!"
Don't leave 5 minutes before the miracle they say. Maybe tell yourself "I will not drink on the evenings I go to meeting, I can drink the next night" Kinda a twist on one day at a time. Some people stay on their hampster wheel and just ADD AA to it, for a while. It's painful to watch. Try not to fall into that routine. Most eventually do get it. Just give it some time. I'm excited for your future as a fellow "High functioning one" You want to know a secret - We really arn't. When you grow in sobriety, the more clear it becomes that there's no such thing as "High functioning" just the illusion. We were all hanging by the thinest of threads without knowing the full extent of it.