Originally Posted by
mermaidgirl 
I have given him everything I can, and now that I am getting better-the chances he wants don't exist anymore. I cannot believe that when I am with him even for a few hours I feel nothing. No pain, no love, no hate-just nothing.
That's self preservation kicking in, and it's really, really powerful. I am in the same place you are. It makes all the difference in the world.