Thank you all...I needed to hear some relevance from last night. He is soooooo good at filling his eyes up with tears and making this all about him. I feel for him, like I would a patient one of my physicians I work for would be treating-he is sick, but that doesn't mean I have to be part of the sickness.
I have given him everything I can, and now that I am getting better-the chances he wants don't exist anymore. I cannot believe that when I am with him even for a few hours I feel nothing. No pain, no love, no hate-just nothing.
Thank you again...the support I have here is a vital piece to my recovery and strength to stand up and say-I cannot allow you or anyone to hurt me anymore. I may have tears in my eyes about the loss-but my heart is saying thank you to words that are coming out of my mouth.