what I did different this time is being completey honest with my husband about how much I was drinking, I was drinking vodka after he went to bed. And being honest with my dr and being monitered by him, I went to a recovery center for an assessment, they told me there I needed to be in a rehab to detox, but I wasnt able to leave my family, they told me to go to the dr so he could monitor me and give me meds to help with withdrawal. So 2 weeks after the assessment and 2 weeks of heavy drinking I decided that was enough. Having my husbands support and the drs to really helps, and of course God and prayers give me strength. My Pastor is very supportive too. I dont know what I would do without her.
If you are trying to get sober and havent been successful, dont give up. One day at a time.