(((((((((((huggys)))))))) and welcome to SR. Yes, 21 is too young to die! I'm glad your going to a meeting,but I would also like to suggest to go see a doctor. Posting here is a great way to have an outlet and get support. I too had a scare when I was young with too much coke. Not a nice feeling at all! I try and live by the 24 hour slice,it makes things much easier to manage.