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i have my first aa/na meeting tonight. ihave never been before and im not sure if i can even do it. i have been using for two or three years ( i think more like three) i od'ed on heroine last year and took a few weeks off, but i didnt change. i just changed my drug of choice. i had a heart attack on saturday from shooting too much coke. i know its time to stop using. i feel like total **** and have been having panic attacks all day. i feel like im going to die. i just wantto know that everything is going to be ok. i want to know im not going to pick up a needle again. im 21. im too young to die. i dont want my son to grow up with out a mother like i did.