It's never worked out for me doing it on my own and lord knows i tried a myriad of ways and countless times. I had to fully admit that i had absolutely no control over my addiction once i put a substance into my body and come to the realization that i couldn't maintain abstinence in solitude. It was then that i entered the 12 step rooms and began to find a solution that has worked for many. It now works for me too. Whatever path you choose, i hope you find some help. It's been my experience and that of countless others that it always gets worse.
Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day, saying, "I will try again tomorrow."