Omega10

Learn to love yourself first.

One thing I have noticed over the last 7 weeks is that right now everything I do is all about me. It's the first time in my life I have put myself first. Usually I worry about others first, and me last, and that's part of what made me so messed up.

It's a hard thing to do. I carry a bit of guilt over the fact that I am being so self-absorbed right now. But it is the only way I can achieve my goal.

I still treat everyone with respect, I just don't drop everything to cater to their needs anymore. I must say, though, that my good friends are really understanding about it, and have not had any issues with it.

I know I don't know you and your situation very well, and I apologize in advance if this sounds too forward of me to say. But the relationship you described above is not love. You seem to be addicted to him the same way you are to your DOCs.

You really do deserve love, Ella. Real love.