BRAVVVOOOOO!!!!! KP, you are making AWESOME progress!!
Oh when the devil sits on our shoulder, and talks us into the obsessive behaviors that do nothing to help us! BLAH! I'd like to punch that sucker right in the face when he tries to manipulate me into obsessing over my Xabf.
I did the same thing as you. I checked his email. I went searching for any little tidbit or morsel of our life together. I wanted to read long, drawn out emails that he had written that he missed me and couldn't live without me. All I found was stuff that hurt me, and left me feeling even more empty than if I had never known at all.
I quit him. Cold turkey. I deleted all of his log ons off my computer. Every time I think about checking on him, I remember that its the devil, talking in my ear. You can't feel bad about stuff you don't know about. Besides, I don't need or want to know what he's doing. It keeps me captive, not him.
So good for YOU!!!!
