And i agree with you Shell, we cant make right all the wrongs,all we can do is try to make amends and keep moving forward.... im just so so glad to not have that lifestyle anymore.. I did all those crappy things i mentioned above, but kind of like w/ds help others to NEVER go back, while i am finally sober and in my right mind, this reminds me to NEVER go back! Im so tickled that March 10th will be 60 days!! who would have thunk it!!! wooohooo