Hang in there
Your situation sounds like mine. I was laid off about 12 months ago from high tech/software sales and had no luck finding anything else yet. I'm starting day 5 of my sobriety and waiting for the WD to hit and so far just high anxiety at night and quick temper during the day, but no real bad WDs. Kind of weird. I too like to ride my Harley for chilling out, but kind of hard to do in the winter here in NH.
This site has been great for me and I hope it helps your efforts too! Hang in there, we can do it!