It is driving me crazy to be around them, to the point where I continually put off going there...I guess what I need is some advice on how to cope ... to get some perspective on it, but can't, I guess it's just too personal and I am reminded what I was and would become were I to take that path again...any advice etc... would be appreciated.
I personally don't recommend figuring out ways to adjust yourSELF so that you can continue to spend time around either one of them. I hate to say it but you are putting your own sobriety in jeopardy. IMO you do NOT need to get advice on how to cope. IMO they are irritating you to the point where you do not want to go there FOR GOOD REASON. Those feelings are your
INSTINCTS telling you to STAY AWAY FROM THEM. Find another way to get work to make ends meet. You cannot tell me that your father is the ONLY employer in Canton, OH.