Hi Medals and welcome to SR.
Well done on making the decision to change.
Every alcoholic tries to moderate their drinking. If you are an alcoholic you will not be able to drink moderately or control it over a period of time. There will come a time where you drink more than you intented to and obsess about it.
Only you can determine if you can control your drinking or you are an alcoholic. We are here with you every step of the way at SR.