Dreams
I spend all day trying to stick to my boundaries. I've made up my mind that this crazy life that involves my addicted husband isn't the life I want to live. I try my hardest to detach. Then I go to bed and have amazing dreams about our life together. This week it will be 7 weeks since this whole madness began with him leaving and I would say more nights than not I have very, very vivid dreams about him and us. In every single dream we are how we use to be before addiction took over his life and made me crazy. I wake up from these dreams incredibly sad because I know that it isn't reality. It sucks! I fall asleep easily, but I dread going to bed because I know I don't want to have these dreams. They just leave me feeling hollow and long for something that will never be. I wonder if anyone else has had this sort of thing happen and how you dealt with it. I know I can't control what I dream, but it is making the mornings so hard when all I can think of are these dreams!