Thoughts were consumed of him, what was he doing, who was he with, is he drinking, why hasn't he contacted me, is he happy, did he meet someone etc.
Yech!!! I remember that panic too and I do not miss it at all!
I don't want to be that girl!
I am SO glad you got to this! GOOD WORK!! It has been a rough road, right? But so WORTH IT, right?!?! Good for you!!!