I went through similar drama as many/all of you. I had a hard time with breaking the vows. My minister said the Bible says 'don't be yoked to a drunkard. " Mine never quit. He had several DUI's, 6 months in jail, lost $70,000 job,lost insurance, no job, added methodone to drinking(a case a day) and smoking pot and growing it in the house........two teens in the house......he was verbally and mentally abusive, addicted to porn, secretly filmed me dressing, hidden cameras in the bath!?!? left two treatment centers, kicked out of outpatient treatment.......I could not eat or sleep.......I lost 25 lbs.......(I've gained back)........I used to grind my teeth and did some damage there. My health was going south. Oh he was buying alot of Sudafed.......?.........getting neighbors to buy it for him, and doctor shopping for pain pills.....he had no pain! Uh......worn out from typing this.......but it is good to remember the ca ca. We are not alone.....we are all one!