Thank you all for your kind words and wisdom. I am so in a cycle right now that I am finding hard to break. I know that it is up to me to break this cycle.
I often think back to my periods of abstinence and remember the solace I felt during these times. I felt secure knowing my actions were my own and that I need not wake worrying I had said or done the wrong thing.
Why is it that we continue to destroy our lives?