update:
He's been out of the house for 5 days now. I feel comfort knowing he's not coming home at night raging in like a bat out of hell....or the sick stomach feeling of wondering what is going to happen next. As I keep myself busy, I feel ok. I asked him not to contact me so I can really get my thoughts together. He said we needed to talk it through...I told him I did that for 6 months straight and this time he knew be4hand the next time I was going to have him leave our home and now I want to think about my options by myself. Of course he can't do that (well he's staying out of the house...but he's calling and texting)...evertime I get a text or call I feel bad...like I'm being the mean one now. The more he doesn't contact me...the stronger I feel. I think the longer I have time to myself the stronger I can get and best make my choices for ME. Thanks for the luv!