Hey there Transform
Sorry to hear about the landlord going broke and having to foreclose. It must really suck for her to have to give up her source of income with two little ones to care for.
Originally Posted by
transformyself 
... I'm fighting feeling like a looser. Why cant' I have stability?....
In _this_ economy? I don't know _anybody_ who has stability.
Originally Posted by
transformyself ... I believe we create our own situations. What am I suppose to be learning that I haven't?....
I believe that life is all about the "serenity prayer". Some situations I create myself, others just happen, and if I learn how to tell them apart and respond _apropriately_ I'll be able to survive them all.
What are you supposed to be learning? Well what sticks out at me is that your landlord is in a very dark pit in her own life, and that if your sister had been the tenant it would have been a nightmare for your landlord. I think the lesson is that you have a kind and compasionate heart and that you have been a blessing for the landlord.
You were able to help another person in need even though you were going thru your own hardships. Personally, I think that shows awesome recovery
Mike