What scares me is that if the white knuckling continues, maybe I'm not really ready for sobriety
all I think it means is maybe you haven't learn enough coping tools yet LMW
Keep going to those meetings and ringing that temporary sponsor.
And don't give in - in my experience you can learn to ride cravings out - keep busy if you can - maybe suck on a sweet...vary your routine...call someone or post here
you're not alone LMW
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