I'm hardly the one to speak on this one.... having just begun my sobriety...again. What I can relate to is the just wanting the crappy feelings to stop. Drinking was my solution... or at least my postponement of the crappy feelings. I guess at some point you just have to feel them. My longest time in sobriety was 7 months. When I relapsed, I remember saying that I just felt like crap and didn't think sobriety was changing anything. One friend's response... "well, yah, the whole first year is crap." I remember thinking... God I wish somebody had told me that before so I just didn't expect much out of the first year.
Good Luck to both of us, eh?