Originally Posted by
suki44883 
Maybe because, after a while, all that chaos becomes comfortable. You've gotten so used to it that you can't see how awful it really is. Some time away from him would help you gain a little perspective. It's difficult to make rational decisions when everything around us is irrational.
So very true! Easier to live with it! Fear holds us back from leaving a situation we KNOW is wrong, hurtful and makes us feel worthless.
In my own experience, I was SO SCARED to leave him to HIS addictions. I was worried about what would happen to HIM! HEY, what about ME? What about what's happening to MY life?
I completely lost myself in hiding his drinking, hiding his problems. I lived my life digging through garbage, wondering how many beers he drank today..OMG what a chaotic life!
Leaving was hard..but it was the best thing. Nothing worth having is easy!
((HUGS))